NOT ME!!

Another Monday is here again, so here are some things from the week:

1. I did not run to Target in my jammies because I was way too comfortable and on top of that wore them tucked nicely into my rainboots!! NOT ME!!

2. I was not dressing Grayson the other day only to see him turn around too late and blast me with a "pooter-tooter". Oh the smell! NOT ME!!

3. I was not in the middle of Target with my almost-5-year old when he announced he had to go "poo-poo" in a loud voice, but more than that, did not wait until we got to the bathroom to go! The undies went in the garbage and he got dunked in the tub when we got home. Where's the baby Desitin when you need it for your 5-year old?! NOT ME!!

4. I was not unabashedly singing at the top of my lungs and doing the motions to one of my praise songs only to look beside me at the stop light and see the dear lady laughing hysterically!! NOT ME!! (Please tell me she saw that Grayson was in the backseat in his carseat screaming away with me!!!)

5. I did not threaten bodily harm or nasty words to someone today upon hearing that our moving date has been changed AGAIN! NOT ME!!! (Yeah, there comes that "mean girl"!!)

6. I did not move the time on Grayson's clock back an hour praying that he would see that he was up way too early and go back to sleep and give us all additional rest! NOT ME!! (And yes, it backfired when at 6:30 his time he came into our room saying that he just couldn't wait to get up and looked over to see my clock reading 7:30!!)

"MEAN GIRL"????

Off with the self-pity of yesterday and on with the new after a good spanking! I don't want to make light of my "emotional" posting yesterday, those feelings are/were real, but after a good day in the Word and at Bible Study, I have been spanked and am picking up. Self-anything is never good and I fear that I went too far in expressing my feelings looking for a reaction when all I needed was to take it to God and leave it there. He knows best how to help me, to guide me, to comfort me, to wrap loving arms of "I am all-sufficient" around me.


Don't you hate when those "demons" from the past come licking at your heels? What am I, 15 again?! As Katy would say, "Good Grief!" Haven't I gone through this exact same thing many times over in my life. When is enough going to be enough?! AAAHHHH!!


So in the form of an apology for making any feel as if they needed to respond at all to my earlier posting with an "awww", there it is. If that is a sign or symptom or a small character triat of one of those "MEAN GIRLS" I am truly sorry that it reared it's ugly head! After Bible Study for those of you who are in Esther Study, please give me a look or a call that says I'm on the brink of becoming one of "THE GIRLS". Some of you have absolutely no idea what I am talking about, but Beth Moore gave some great insights and near spankings to some of us with natural inclinations or tendencies to being a "Mean Girl". I hate to say even the best of us exhibit some of those nasty qualities sometimes.

I have control of myself and those lovely things called "emotions" today, and am trying to look for ways to focus on others rather than self. What better cure for the "woe-is-me's" than turn attention on the "who's-around-me". God, help me to leave at your feet all feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, loneliness, self-worth, self-judgment. Help me to constantly be aware of those around me and focus rather on how to be a help-meet, encourager, mommy-friend, co-worker, and girl friend. Thank you for quickly mending fences and for accepting us just as we are where we are!!

A Little Funk

(please know that one of the great ways to sort through things is in writing...)
Do you ever begin feeling down and can't pinpoint where it has come from? I all of a sudden began to feel very lonely this past week. A little insecure maybe, a little paranoid maybe, hormonal maybe that too! But as I look back over the past month, I have been really busy getting ready to move, trying to get caught back up and maybe a little ahead at work, and just doing the daily "living" stuff. I think my problem is that I have isolated myself from everyone, at times even Trevor and Grayson, and it's sending me into this little funk. Thankfully God and I have reconnected very quickly with the help of this semester's awesome Bible Study on Esther!!

I feel a little out-of-touch with everything around me and that is never good. I have isolated myself to the point that it feels uncomfortable making the phone calls to restore relationships that you have neglected and try to get back in the groove again. Trevor and I definitely need some time with just each other and hopefully will get a date night when my Mom comes next week! I can't wait to unpack toys with Grayson and find "long lost" treasures to play with. As for my friends, some of you reading, please don't think that I don't think of you and pray for you often. I have seemed to be in the background in my own world, but I do want to know what's going on in your world too! I can't wait to invite ya'll over for coffee on a Friday morning when the "big" boys are in school.

So, I'm saying good-bye to whatever is involved in the January funk and it's time to press on. The last couple of weeks went by in a blur, and February is upon us. It's the time to celebrate those we love and hold dear. So to all of you who are dear to me, here's to getting over the funk and reconnecting!!

Stolen!!

I love popping over to read Erica's blog. We met a couple years ago through a mutual friend. I always get a laugh at her candor as she shares glimpses of her life. She adopted a special segment called "Not ME!". Every Monday she puts out a list of "Not Me's!". It is a list that is "supposed to make light of all the things we did not accomplish, or accomplished but probably shouldn't have, during the week. It is to keep us humble and realize that all of us are in a constant pattern of not living up to our own expectations. It is to remind us that we all need patience and grace with ourselves and others."

I don't know if I'll adopt this every week on Monday, but it will keep Trevor from having to listen to some of my random rantings and personal reflections/thoughts!! Sometimes we just need to get things off our chest, right?!

1. I did not take Grayson to McDonalds for lunch today because I was craving one bite of a McD's hamburger and a fry, all the while saying it was because he did so well in school last week! NOT ME!

2. I did not try watching a movie for the fourth time this past week, only to fall asleep before I could get to the ending. NOT ME! (Keep in mind that every time I started watching it again, I would go to the part I remembered seeing last!)

3. I did not sit at the computer and blog while Grayson was in the other room watching a cartoon, the same cartoon, for the third time! NOT ME!

4. I did not empty the floor of my closet this week only to find a sport coat of Trevor's so covered with dustbunnies that I couldn't tell what color the jacket was supposed to be! NOT ME!

5. I did not NOT clean my house for the 3rd week in a row thinking that this was moving week! NOT ME!

All is well

So I broke the multiple year silence of visiting the GYN today. It was definitely nice to hear that all was well, it may take longer than I anticipate to get pregnant due to my "older" age, my raging hormones are not a sign of anything bad, and that I am finally 5 pounds from where I was pre-Grayson! None of these things I would readily share with the world, but in blogland with just me and my computer, I can share my thoughts freely! Today was, in Jayne's world, a big day, so with all things we find "big", we blog!!

I must admit to being discouraged that it has taken as long as it has to get pregnant again, but it is all in God's perfect timing. Grayson came along not on our time table, but when God knew everything was as it should be before he arrived. With so many other things to focus on right now, I'm just enjoying the journey until we get there !!!!!!

As for the weight, none of you here knew Jayne pre-baby form, but I am glad to be looking like a glimpse of my old self again. I am even diving into my "old tubs of clothes" that I have kept around saying that "one day" I'd wear them again. It has been a long road, and loneliness has been my friend too many times in these past 4 years. I'm not really focusing on it at all, but am just watching the intake and being more picky about the intake than before. Just need to fit some "regular" exercise into my busy days and those last few will come off sooner than later!

So on just another ordinary Friday, I am in lighter spirits for a few crazy reasons, but am glad to know that all is well!

And the results are...

Being the eternal pessimist is a good thing...I'm the only one not sulking today!! WE DID NOT GET EVEN ONE FLURRY OF SNOW!!!!!!!!! Grayson is loving his shortened week though!

By the way, Jungle Gym is the name of the inflatable place we went last week. It is beside LazerQuest in VA Beach just down from Lynnhaven Mall. Check them out online for a coupon!
www.junglegym4kids.com

Will it or won't it??????

I was going to change my background, but considering the title talks about a snowy day...

Here we sit on Tuesday, Inauguration Day, anticipating the snow that is apparently coming! The last time that school was cancelled due to impending weather I was in grade school and we had just moved to Lynchburg. Us northerners thought it was hilarious to cancel school because of snow that was "supposed" to be coming. It ended up being a beautiful day and we spent it together as a family.

Well, over here, I have a household of craziness...will it or won't it?! All 3 of us actually are anticipating putting mittens to good use today. The anticipation of it all is insane! I would have much preferred to have woken up to the blanket on the ground already. As it stands now, we could wait all day for nothing!!

Check back later to see what happened...