Loved You Then

It's probably no surprise to anyone that knows me that music can get to me like no other. When I'm happy, I whistle or sing a tune. When I'm sad, I like to listen to worship music, classical, or some "fun" music. I love to be in the car by myself, on a roadtrip, windows down and sunroof open, music blaring so loud that it drowns out the wind and me as I sing at the top of my lungs. I have songs that mark certain times in my life or songs that remind me of certain people. And in church on Sunday, I am easily brought into the presence of God by good worship!!


One of my new favorite groups is 33 Miles. They are a Christian group, but have that country-ish sound. I call them my Christian Rascal Flatts. Anyways, my new song you're listening to is from them. I think it's on their second album. As I listened to this song for the first time, it was through many tears streaming down my cheeks. Even now, hearing it for the umpteenth time, the message of the song gets to me. Every person can use the message of this song, maybe not right now, but look out! As a Christian we are not promised a perfect life and mine is far from that right now! But what God does promise each of us is that as the struggles and pain comes our way, He promises to be there right beside us guiding, leading, loving, surprising us with His peace and presence. As I listen to the chorus, I imagine that God is speaking directly to me and I imagine that these are words that He would be speaking into my life right now. Do you hear Him talking to you today? Even if you need a quick reminder, He's talking to you and saying... "I loved you then, I love you now, I will love tomorrow. When this world breaks you down, I will give you strength to stand. Look to Me, take My hand and just believe...before this day ever began, I loved you then!!"

God, on this journey of life, thank you for giving me reminders like this that constantly play in my mind and heart. I am ever surrounded by Your promises and grateful that the God of my childhood and early beliefs is that same God that is here with me in my mid-30's. It's even better though because I do have the pain and struggles and storms of life that have come my way that deepen my faith, give me a new glimpse into who You are, and allow me to appreciate the way You love, the way You protect and care for, and the way You're always on my side and in my corner, fighting for me and over me. Oh that I may continue to be reminded and show others that You are the reason for strength and grace and peace and quiet calm. I am ever grateful for Your reminders of love that come in all forms!! I am looking, I am taking that hand and grasping on for dear life, and I believe that what one of my favorite worship songs says is true: You are God and You are good. (And for you LU people let me hear you...God is good-all the time-and all the time-God is good!!)

Yes, Again!!

We are Busch Gardens fiends, and definitely in these pre-season quiet days before the craziness begins. They are only open on the weekends right now so I had planned to take Grayson up there as soon as school got out. With him being my only child and a five-year old non-napper at that, it's easy to pick up and go on my own. We ate lunch in the car on the way, stoppd by the outlets to get some church sandals for the summer and off we went. I thought we would only stay for a few hours, but we called Daddy to tell him we were having too much fun and we were going to stay until closing!!

The first thing we always do is ride the train, but today we had one mission in mind...to ride the Alpine Express roller coaster with Grover. Grayson was scared as he always is doing something new, to the point that we almost got out of line. We hunkered down for our ride and awaited the green light. I must admit that I even had the butterflies of anticipation!! It was an absolute blast! Grayson made sure I held on tight down the first hill, but after that, he said to let go and we giggled for the whole 30 seconds that the ride lasted!!! We proceeded to get back in line, and because it wasn't busy, we literally rode 5 times in a row. WHEW!!

We left from there to go to Oscar's Whirly Worm ride. I knew just by looking at it that it was going to do me in, but I rode once anyways because it was Grayson's first time. Yeah, I almost lost lunch and dealt with the woozy head for a while afterwards. Grayson had so much fun though that he rode by himself 3 more times, every time sitting with someone new and talking to them and laughing the whole time!! Does that sound at all like our Grayson?! Not until preschool and another year got hold of him. He has grown so much in this last year, but that's for another posting.

He said no way to the King Elmo free-drop ride, which I was totally okay with passing by!! We did all of our other usual favorites and then sat down to BBQ over by the Griffon. We finished our day riding the train circuit around 2 times. As we were heading out he asked if there was time to do the roller coaster again, and there was so off we went. There was no line at all so we rode once and then he asked to ride all by himself!! I wasn't sure how he would do, but I proudly waited on the wrong side of the fence as he went in all by himself, waited in line all by himself, chose his seat all by himself, buckled in all by himself, and smiled so big the camera forgot to capture the moment!! (Am I sounding like a broken Mercer Mayer book?!) And yes, he rode all by himself...5 times in a row!!! He even had the privelege of being the last ride for the day, which of course meant they all got to stay on for one last, last ride!!

What a day, and we just might do it again this Friday as soon as school is out!!